Okay, my husband usually ignores my dolls...but occasionally he'll pose them in various and sundry naughty positions, knowing it will crack me up. This morning I woke to find this in my living room...beware, it is utterly NWS/NKS and tacky. But I laughed when I saw it, and HAD to take a pic.

( Ceebee Gettin Friskay )

Well, I've been trying to bond with Zin for a few days, and honestly I'm just not feeling it. The longer I have her, the less I want her. Is it because nobody can measure up to BV and Myr? Is it because of her normal skin tone? All of my other dolls are beauty white, she just looks so...weird next to them. I ordered her on a whim at Christmas when my husband couldn't think of something else to get me, and man...I thought "wow, I've always wanted a Ceebee!" but I didn't even think about the skin tone being a possible issue.

I'm *thisclose* to listing her for sale, with an outfit, wig and shoes of course, and the beautiful lavender glass eyes...thats the only way I could make ANY money off of her, since they were on sale--of course, the lack of a 4-5 month wait is a good selling point, too.  IF I sold her, I'd get a littlefee Chiwoo, and would put a basic flora on layaway so Pepper could have a body again. I could get one doll and be on the way to getting another one--and I LOVE the littlefees, I already know that for certain. No 'iffy' bonding there. I feel guilty because I don't feel ANY emotional attachment to my Ceebee, but is guilt really a good enough reason to keep a doll?

I took a little time last night to blush up her ears and hooves...she's doing her best to be modest in this pic, but its hard when you have not a stitch of clothing to wear. I am having a hard time getting used to her hooves, as the hand ones are quite cumbersome and difficult to pose...but they lend to her look so much that I just can't put her human hands on her, it'd just look wierd to me.

Zinnia is home--I'm having some bumpiness on the bonding front, I really don't know if she'll stay...but she is beautiful.

I hope everyone has a safe and happy easter--if you're going out, please don't drink and drive, and watch out for the fucktards who DO! We (Laney and I, Roy is working) are going to my aunt and uncles house, all we hae to bring is my famous Ambrosia, woo! And I'm gonna see my little niece for the first time, she's almost 5 months old. Yay, babies and free food!

Finally, my days of stalking the CH order status page have paid off...Zinnia has shipped, and is at this VERY moment in L.A., going through Customs. I am sooooo essitedddd! XD Can't wait to get her here and play around w/a faceup for her.

I might have to wait and try to sneak her in though, because a couple of heads just showed up to be faced, and you know how that goes, they go to the front and my stuff gets back-burnered...unless I'm up at 1am some morning and decide to take a little 'me time', bwahahaa...

I've tried several wigs on her, but this one remains my favorite...it is so 'Nellie Olson'. I wasn't sure I could love her as much as Foxglove, but I sure do!

I am just having a shitty day. Shitty shitty shitty. That is all there is to it. Life just isn't fair sometimes,  you can't always make things better for your kids, you can't protect them from emotional pain no matter how much you try. I'm going to have a Mikes now, even though it isn't 4pm yet. I deserve it after today.

I did a trade with Grace/Jpop and got this wonderful Anotherspace outfit--I think it suits Myr perfectly. *love*!